Sometimes, when you least expect it, shit kind of goes crazy--I think that's a good metaphor for my life.
So here's what I'm going to do. Here's what I think is going to help.
I don't need a book to transform my life, I need me to transform my life. I need to overcome my demons to transform my life. And I will, because 1) I have to because I can't live like this anymore and 2) because I'm living for someone. I'm living in memory of someone.
Sometimes, I think all we need is someone to validate that what we're feeling isn't crazy. Someone to say "we've been there, and it sucks, but it gets better."
So, while I am encouraged by the readings and assignments from this app (Transform Your Life, I believe is what it's called), I'm going to be encouraged, instead, by the memory of someone who I cared (care) about. Brian Ray Littrell Jr.
I will be writing about my fight with depression. My good days. My bad days. The stigma associated with depression and anxiety. How I fought my family with my depression. The family history with depression.
All to prove to society thatthe stigma associated with depression needs to change. And it needs to change now...as in yesterday.
I have fought depression since I was 16. My mom was "slipping me" St. Johns Wart (a known herbal remedy for depression, since I was 13).
I have been on some sort of anti-anxiety or anti-depression medicine since I was 16.
I am 23. I am living. I fight every day. I am here to break the stigma.